Subspace

Firstly i would like to say to everyone who has visited here, thank you very much and i must apologise for not posting for some time. Although i have been trying to keep up with all your lovely blogs, most days i just run out of time.

Before i carry on delving into my ancient history i would like to remark and may be stir some comment on Dee’s last post about Subspace.

Forgive me as i might be wrong here but i always thought subspace was a somewhat chemical reaction in the body. Not everyone likes the pain of being spanked or pain in general and the people that do have endorphins that kick in far quicker than your normal person. It acts like taking heroin, gives you a hit and sends you into a state of euphoria. Some subs seem to experience it very quickly; you can see it in their face straight away, some seem to like the build up. In the same vain subdrop is like going into some kind of cold turkey. I know some of my friends are very good with pain but the way there bodies work, that pain and the way there endorphins processes it gives them no pleasure others are real babies when it comes to pain. Dee loves to be spanked and her body must process the amount of pain and release the pain killing chemical slowly. Whereas Faerie can seem to reach it very quickly and what turns everything on its head is that Faerie can reach subspace without pain but a particular sensation brings it on.

Everyone is different, and i ask a lot of questions about this subject with the people i meet but there must be some underlying constant running through this theme.    

Any thoughts anyone.         

More Teenage Trauma

   

Late seventies were great. Glam rock was coming to an end and the new wave of British heavy metal was just starting but there were always the dreaded school discos. Never really liked them much just went along because all my mates where on the pull and i thought i had better be seen to be normal when i didn't really feel normal. Always felt uneasy with the opposite sex, how are you meant to act when you're young and you have spanking fantasies about the girls you meet or know from school. Hi there would you like to dance and by the way i am into spanking in a big way and would just love to put you over my knee and turn that lovely little bottom of yours bright red. Not the best chat up line in the world but where do you start. That's the point i didn't. I had some girl friends and we use to get on and have a laugh but that was as far as it went. I was part of the Red Cross at the time and we met in a big old house. One of the rooms had a load of magazines in it and 4 of us found some soft porn mags. One had a girl bent over a chair being caned and a story to go with it. I think we must have spent an hour in that room all reading different articles and all erect for different reasons but finally a little glimmer of the future, if there are pictures and stories in top shelf magazines perhaps i am not alone after all. 

Adolescence

As i entered my teens my imagination was running wild. There were so many lovely girls in the school all with great figures and tiny little bums. Always pretty much went around in the same group and we lived in a small town so we where 2 minutes from open countryside. We used to go out ditch jumping and there were always small trees you could break a switch off and try it out on one of the girl’s bottoms. Not to hard just enough to test the water and gauge the reaction. We use to meet in the front room of a friend’s house and generally try to act grown up. We would sit around and smoke, drink cheap cider, play the latest music, particularly Queen a night at the opera, glam rock and then on to punk and new wave of British heavy metal. On one particular occasion one of the girls was pissing us off a bit too much and got dragged down across my knee. There must have been about 4 or 5 of us spanking her all at once, a good 40 odd smacks and she came up looking a bit dishevelled and sat quietly in the corner. The rest of the crew was probably not aware of how much this turned me on and inwardly i always felt embarrassed and a bit ashamed of the feelings that where growing stronger in me.   

I don’t know if it’s the case but it seems a lot easier now. Years ago i felt alone, strange and weird, with no information about people’s fetishes and cravings. Being young now and with the advent of the internet all the information is at your finger tips and you can explore your feelings through more experienced peoples websites and blogs. Or is it just the case that too much information can be damaging and confuse even more.